Thursday, April 18, 2013

"Otep" narrated by Otep

yes through some miracle Otep read my poem. If everyone could check this out. (i can die happy)
http://soundcloud.com/otepsaves/brandon-poem
~Brandon

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

The street Part 2 - Savior


snow

Collapsed on the street
Snow piled high on me
Tears strolling down my cheek
I don’t bother to wipe them
Knowing I am alone
I sit and wait for death to finally catch up
No longer caring
I hear it coming and look up to face it
But death is not what stares back at me
It is you,
You kneel beside me
Brush off the snow
I look into your eyes
I see no hate, only love
I wonder why you are here
On this side of the street
The wrong side
You don’t say anything,
You just smile
Your smile breaks the ice caging my heart
I feel safe,
Like you wouldn’t hurt me
You raise me to my feet
Take my hand in yours
You lead me away from my pole
We walk down the street for a while
Unsure of who you are or why you helped me
We kept walking; you pulled me closer to you
You wrap an arm around my waist
And place your head on my shoulder
I have never felt love before
But I know this must be it
We keep walking
Night is turning to day
I know now that you were sent to me
Delivered to me
To be my savior
I look in your eyes and see that same sparkle
As when you first picked me up
I love you more than anything
I will never leave your side
For you are my savior
So I walk beside you
Down the wrong side of the street
Happy, at last

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Otep

A troubled soul
Shunned from the world
Rejected by society
He returned home an
Outcast
To the blade he went
Locked in his room
To the mirror he looked
Tears streamed down his face
“Just another day, it will be better tomorrow” he whispered
The blade clenched in his fist
Waiting for the feelings to stop
Drawing up that crimson flood
When
Her voice flowed through the speakers
“If you fucking touch us again; I will fucking kill you!”
He searched for the song
‘Home Grown’
With her voice he could
Do anything
Be anything
No longer would he pick up the blade
No longer would he be weak
He lifted his chin
Walked with confidence
Stood up for his beliefs
Stopped putting up with the abuse
Her voice
So strong
So powerful
So commanding
She
Picked him up off the floor
Gave him hope
Gave him strength
Allowed him to believe in himself
She is a part of his soul
She is
Otep

Monday, April 15, 2013

Trash

freak...?

obsessed...?

throwing my life away...?

making mistakes...?

~

What gives you the right?

to judge

accuse

and

diminish me

~

I stood before you

showed you the real me

and for what?

what good did it do?

~

All I felt is rejected

neglected

tossed to the side

like trash

~

So here I sit

with the one I am so called "obsessed" with.

She loves me, accepts me, and wouldn't change a thing

about your son.

~

The Street

dark-street-lights-photo
There he is!
Look now, the beast walks!
The pain they bring
Sadness forever consuming his heart
Walking along the familiar path
On the wrong side of the street
Staggering along
Alone
The snow piling up on his shoulders
Darkness setting in on his path
Stumbling along he keeps going
Though he can not fathom why
He shuffled to the nearest lamp post
And collapsed to the cold ground
Out of breath, out of energy
He simply can’t go on like this
He will wait for
The one
That will pick him up
And carry him to safety

Sunday, April 14, 2013

My Light

images
You are my light that keeps my soul alive
In the deep trenches of my life
I see the speck of light in this dismal place
Sent here, I stand forsaken by a world
That which will never understand me
~
I am drawn to its beauty
The bright white light among
This pitch black nothingness
Towards it I must go
~
I move as if pulled by it
Away from all the
Hatred, Torment, and Pain
Drifting silently through this abyss
~
It’s so beautiful
Shining its love far into this hateful realm
Caught in its grace my soul is lifted
Cleansed of its rage
~
I reach the light
Seeing only my Guardian Angel
Standing before me
Embracing me with affection
~
We move away
Never looking back
Giving me strength
When no one else could
~
I look forth to our path ahead
Not caring what I see
Happy to be encased in your warmth
And glad to be out of the blackness
~
For where ever I go
For what ever I do
I will always love you
My Guardian Angel

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Heartbeat

cuddlez
Thump, Thump
The cadence of your heart
beats to its own drum.
Soothing me, calming me
softly echoing, a sweet hum.
~
Thump, Thump
My arms tighten around you
closer to hear that thrum.
The room's only light offered by the moon
I listen to your heart strum.
~
Thump. Thump
After our night of passion
this embrace is the sum
of our love, affection, and adoration
I slowly begin to succumb.
~
Thumb, Thump
My eyes feel heavy
I wonder how this could have come,
that my love for you has grown stronger
even now I ponder this as I become
~
Thump, Thump
Ever so tired, closing my eyes
I keep my thoughts away from
All our trials and problems that will arise
I am happy to relish and feel numb
~
Thump, Thump
completely taken by your embrace
I hold you tighter, beginning to swum
into the realm of dreams
never again can will my face be glum
~
Thump, Thump

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Fairy Tale



Our story just began,

yet we have written so much.

Each chapter,

a new beginning,

a new step,

towards our happily ever after.

~

Although apart now,

we won't be forever.

Distance has been conquered

another triumph in our story

for we can see the other now.

~

Never before have I been so close

to another.

Never before have I been loved

this deeply.

Never before have I loved

this deeply.

~

As our story unfolds,

as we write each page, line, and word

our love just grows and grows.

You are the only one I want to be writing

this Fairy Tale with.

Cliche




You are "my other half,"
my "soul-mate,"
my "one and only"
all cliches 
~
yet,
all are true.
~
I was alone,
a broken down,
shell of a man
you came to me,
as if sent by God himself.
~
My guardian angel in the flesh
you saved me without knowing,
helped me put down the knife
and lifted my chin
~
And on that day
12/11
you became mine,
I became yours.
At the time
neither knew how intense
our love would grow.
~
Deeper and deeper we fell
hand in hand
step in step
once two,
now two halves making a whole
~
through thick and thin
we prevail
nothing can stop true love
love conquers all
~
the time I have been yours
has been the best of my life
never before have I been so happy
you are my one and only
my 'forever'

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Expression of Love

To My Love,

          In this short time we have been together, words cannot do a justice to describe what you mean to me. From the time that we first talked until now, there is a huge difference in me. It can only be explained by your presence in my life. You have given me back my life. I now have purpose and direction in my life. You are the reason I get out of bed in the mornings; you are what I fight for, and will always fight for. Since we have been together, I look at life through a different lens. I see positives in life that I never did before.
          We say that we love each other all the time, and for me it is so much more than love. You have been nothing short of my own personal guardian angel. Whenever I am down, or not feeling 100% you are right there to make me feel good again. And you never ask anything in return, you just act so selfless and I am so blessed to receive that kind of love.
          You truly are my one and only baby. You have filled my heart with so much love, love that I never thought existed. I really can't explain it, but to wake up in the morning and knowing that someone loves you with all their heart is its... one of the most incredible feelings in the world.
          A, I love you so much! Every day I fall in love with you again and again each and every single day. And it's the simple things that make me fall for you. Things like "suuuure." Or just how you make me feel by telling me that you love me, or even just by being with me. All these things just make me realize every day just how crazy I am about you.
          The more and more time we spend together, the more we fall deeper in love with each other. This time we have been together, really is the best time of my life. I can't wait to continue writing our love story together. I love you so much!!!!

Love forever and always,

Brandon <3

Monday, April 8, 2013

A Flake In Time




The snow falling down on you and i

tumbling down nonetheless

From the dull grey pillows in the sky

landing softly upon your dress

I look down to the lake with a wandering eye

peaceful, serene, and not another soul on this ness

except of course, for you and i

captivated by your hair you did up in a tress

you sit here and i mustn’t lie

I love your sweet, soft caress

pulling me by my black tie

brushing your lips against mine to express

as my hand comes to rest upon your thigh

your absolute devotedness

my soul melts, with a sigh

my heart a swelling to excess

tears form as I begin to cry

yearning for this moment to be ageless

Death Dream


In your loving arms
hand caressing my face
you wipe my tears away
Your sweet smile embracing my dying soul
Breeze rolling through your hair
the sunlight caressing your cheek
the darkness gets closer
As the light of the day grows
To be in your arms
is my dying wish
I love you more
Than you could ever know
I wince my last wince
You take the pain away with your kiss
Slipping away you pull me tight
Darkness consumes me as I hear you say
I love you

The Eye (Edgar Allan Poe Adaptation)

jailed
After such a heinous act
how can I be so calm
I tell you this in a pact
never tell for fear of The Eye
~
I remember
like yesterday
sitting there,
staring into The Eye
I felt it in the air
That’s when I knew
I had to take it,
remove The Eye
~
Crazy, and mad
you might think of I
Smile at you
I hold your gaze with My Eye
~
Now, sit and stay
be a good lad
sit down as tell
this tale of the heart gone mad
~
You should have seen me young lad
Meticulously was I
As I planned for those seven days;
how to steal that Eye
~
You would have loved to see
Oh I was so cunning
Almost salivating now
my plan was stunning
~
Upon each night I creep
Into the room of The Bligh
at midnight, observing
watching the Evil Eye
~
Cracking the door
I poke my head in, exposed
Ha! Would a crazy be as careful?
there the eye lay, closed
~
Seven nights did this occur
each night the same as the last, I swear
On the eighth, again I enter
This time he calls “who’s there?”
~
Silenced remained,
I lingered still
quiet as ever
Twas quite the thrill
~
“It is nothing but the wind in the chimney
it is only a mouse crossing the floor,
It is merely a cricket which has made a single chirp.”
he uttered
~
Though comforting the eye might try
Death lingered, so close by
Laying back down, continued on did I
I released a soft sigh
~
That’s when the feelings came
Anxiety crept over with no warning
Nervous? but how? I was so sure
Then, I thought, their would be no mourning
~
A shriek from my lips
to the bed I ran
dragging out the eye to the floor
Pulling the bed over the old man
~
Standing back
peeling back the planks
concealing him
to the floor I gave thanks
~
The deed done and finished
relishing in the moment
this act forever with me
for life I would have to own it

Sunday, April 7, 2013

Partner


To you,


my love.

I give you this,

a small token,

for all that you do.

From the moment you entered my life,

you saved my soul,

gave me hope.

You saved my life.

I told you how I felt,

took the risk,

 told you how I felt.

It worked!

You felt the same for me,

Why? I did not care.

On that day,

you became mine,

and I became yours;

your partner.

Now,

nearly three months later,

I love you more than words can describe.

You have given me:

love,

hope,

p
u
r
p
o
s
e

for that,

I am speechless.

Just know this:

I will always love you,

cherish you,

 be there,

for you,

always

and

forever.

Friday, April 5, 2013

Lucky

face
I wake with start,
to you and your smiling lips.
The sunshine peaks through the window,
illuminating your rosy cheeks.
Radiating my heart,
supplying the warmth,
to fuel my soul.
Give me the strength,
to carry on in life.
~
I ever so gently take your face in my hands;
kissing you,
pouring my love into you.
Caressing your cheeks with my thumb
I think to myself,
“I must be in heaven.”
There are no words to describe
the way I feel,
the love you give,
the hope you spread.
You mean more to me than you know
I don’t know how I got so lucky.

Me



It's been awhile,
since I could be proud.
and
It's been awhile,
since I have been loved.

And, everything I remember,
is fucked up as I know it.

Look at this face,
the stories there I cannot erase.

It's been awhile,
since I had purpose.
and
It's been awhile,
since I was comfortable in my skin.

And, everything I remember
is pathetic, poetic, and just SICK!

It's been awhile,
since I had something to love.
and
It's been awhile,
since I felt this way.

So I close this chapter
of my ever changing life.

I'm on the outside,
and I'm looking in,
I see who you are,
your true colors,
and your ugly,
ugly like me.

~

I have her now,
I need nothing else.
I have never been so happy,
since I've been with you.

It will soon be
that we are together.
and
It will soon be
that I marry her.

~

It's been awhile
since I've thought I had a future.
and
It's been awhile
since I have been...

ME